I used to have a journal, but tore it apart and set it on fire after reading some entries. I absolutely hate my writing style (lots of repeating, nonesense and embarassing stuff that makes me feel ashamed of myself the next day).
I tried to picture a visit at the psychiatrist, but it all turned into me 'begging' for a gun to kill the bastard (psychiatrist) for asking me stupid questions...I doubt I'd be able to express my feelings towards the psychiatrist in such situations, I have always had problems with expressing what I feel.