Something has got to be wrong with me, to stay with a man that would treat me the way he dose, just today my sister has pointed out things that I didn't realize until she said them. I am scared, I'm scared he's going to leave me, I'm scared of what my life will be like if I stay.

Every time he says "I don't care about you, I don't want to be with you, it's over" why can't I put my phone down and ignore him? I know he dose not mean those things, but one can only hear such negativity before they start to believe, I am co-dependent, an enabler, a push over, to nice, I care to much, love to deep, I hold on to things even if they hurt me.

I'm hurt, broken, and with each hurtful word I crumble, I have no time to heal before the next thing gose wrong, I thought I was strong, I'm not strong enough to stay or leave, I am in limbo, my emotions are all over the place, I'm sick everyday, I just want this to get better.

I know, leave him, he's no good, I've heard it before. It's not as easy as it sounds. I love him