Well, he came over tonight for the 1st time since he left. I had to call him and tell him that there was something very important to talk about, and asked him to come over after the kids were asleep. I told him that I left a message for a lawyer today, and that I am contemplating divorce. He knows that I am TOTALLY against divorce, and that I am not making a rash emotional decision. We were separated 14 months before he moved back in at T'giving, so I am not rushing into this at all.
I am going on a religious retreat the last weekend of this month, and I will continue to pray and ask God for guidance in this decision. I explained to him that I cannot continue to allow him to treat me this way, that we are his wife and children, we ARE NOT DISPOSABLE. That's how it feels to me, like if he's unhappy he just leaves. I am always left with all of the responsibility, he lives 2 min. away and hasn't seen his children in 10 days!!!
OK, I am still hurt and a little angry, but I know he is hurting, too. He is seriously depressed and there is nothing I can do to help him. He really has no close friends to help him through this, he is relying on his therapist and psychiatrist. I am not sure what I should do...