hearts get broken inside me everytime I move...

I have more than 1

my illness demands things from me I can only imagine I can contend with

...there is an escape that is shut tight so tight...

I forget what I am competing with I was on the run....

I don't want this!

my incomplete self proves that someone can be a disaster

it is so desperate to find something else...

what a disbelief despite urgency...

I am stuck here

...believing this is all I know....