I have had a lot of trouble maintaining relationships both romantic and friendships, IRL and online, for as far back as I can remember.
I have a few loyal friends who see past my issues and care about me for me, I'm lucky for that.
I used to get drunk or high and go on a dating site looking for someone, got taken advantage of a lot before I sobered up.
I've made some progress, and maintain a few fofilling friendships. but my current relationship partner (the father of one of my children) makes me sick to look at or hear at the moment, it looks like that relationship is going to wind up down the toilet just like my marriage did. Romantic relationships seem to last about two years tops for me.
I just hope someday I'll make as much progress as I need to, and that I'll resemble the person I'd like to be. That my kids need me to be.