Last wk was terrible & it led to SI. I've been good since. It's been very hard to hide from my H. I even thought about which side of my body is next to him in bed so I he wouldn't notice.
Last night he wanted to be intimate & soon enough he turned the light on! The old question of "when did this happen?" Came up & I only said it was old. I know he's angry & hasn't talked to me since.
Usually I feel very ashamed about it. I think he even emailed my T to tell her but I'm not sure. Part of me is angry w/ him & this part is new. I go to a women's group & we talked about SI saying in some parts of the world it's an acceptable way of coping & no one has the right to judge. I know it's not a great way to handle stress,duh, but I'd like to stop feeling so ashamed about it. It's not like I can talk to him about it. It just disgusts him.
Any words of advice?
Thanks