So technically Im PTSD Complex with borderline features. everything but the splitting thing. The worst part of it for me is the fear of being abandoned . I hate being alone...I think its becasue of the identity stufff. I have like no identity. If no one else is around then Im just nobody. I hate that. Does anybody else get this way? I cant pick a career, a sexual orientation, even a style of dress...Im just feel like Im nobody...I was thinking there was someone in here but i couldnt find her....could it be Im just really nobody? Does anyone else go through this? Argh.