Hi Quiet&Awkward,

I know how you feel. I'm 35 years old, no close friends, the only family I have are my mother and father, and I haven't been in a relationship since I was 21 years old. I have many good day when I feel happy and grateful for what I have, but I also have many bad days when I feel really sad and lonely too. I think making new and close friendships is difficult at our age. But probably the best way to go about it is to find a hobby you like and do that (joining a meetup group is a great way to do that). You'll meet people with the same interest as you and that will give you a lot to talk about. Another option, which I'm considering to do, is volunteering. I've read that volunteering does wonders to decrease depression because you end up getting a "feel good" feeling from helping others. I really think the key to happiness is to do things for others. Not only will it make you feel better, but you will most likely meet new people and make friends (and it won't feel as forced as a meetup group). Hope this helps and that you're doing well. Good luck.