Dear atomicc,

Sorry for all you've gone through. You shouldn't feel dirty about it at all....you were the victim here....and now a survivor of this sexual assault and bullying.

You are not overreacting. Bad incidents in school sometimes last a lifetime. This is not a case of "boys will be boys" or "hormones kicking in".....if that was the case, all boys will behave like these jerks...but that doesn't happen. Probably they were being abused at home....not that it excuses their behaviour. Generally when a child does something wrong - an adult is responsible for it.

These boys were bullying you and sexually assaulting you. You should definitely talk to your T about it. You should also talk to your parents about it. Sometimes, we subconsciously blame our parents for not protecting us - so it would definitely help.

Good luck!!