Thanks. It was... triggering. And because I have trouble asking for help, no one knows how bad it made me.
Self harmed when I got home. If it's this bad Wednesday, I will just stop by my t's office. She said I could go there if I needed help but did not know how to ask. I don't want to end up inpatient, but if I fail an attempt, I will definite lose my t. If I ask to go, we can talk about continuing. I would rather succeed, but I have my doubts I'm my ability, so is rather seek her help at this point. Feeling so hopeless.