Hello Ouch sorry you are having a hard time at this time. I wish you would call your Dr and let them know what is happening, if you need help it is okay to get the help you need, we have all been where you are, Help is just getting the help you need to go on with your life, until you are safe. I feel the best thing to do is let the Dr make the decision in what you need to do for yourself since you need help at this time. Take care Soidhonia