Its more like, random, high and lows, sometimes feeling 'hypo during the day' and down again by night time. Or the other way around.

When I feel my mood is high I tend to feel like a lot how people talk about on here, feeling energetic, happy, feeling i can do anything and can get aggressive. I used to have tremors when I got it because it would trigger anxiety, but now I just go with it.

I just wish I could have normal highs and lows. So treatment wouldnt be so complicated. Like half the time when I go back a week later seeing how a med is working I feel totally different. Depending on how im doing that week or that day.

I dont know. Maybe my memory has become so bad I simply dont remember. I do have times of depression for up to two months. But I only remember depression lasting that long... once. But I think the past month, I been depressed. the last time it lasted for a month was last year.

But most of the time. I dont know, I feel im all over the map all the time. Most of the time when I feel "normal" I really feel heavy headedness and stupid.

I think it could maybe be from switching medications all the time. I dont know. I am seeing a new doc next week and im getting a second opinion.... I just wish I had a cycle, Id rather be depressed or hypo then feeling a bit of both all the time and it spiking up and down.

Maybe this is the effect of medications and if this is what they are supposed to do.. I just go off...