(((troubledone)))

It will go away, I can promise you that. I always thought that i'd have to live with this forever, have it take over my life like it did for the past 8 yrs, until recently, as little as up to 3 months ago I was as you know plauged with PTSD symptoms, but once you learn to cope, to let your self let go of the past, to not live with the guilt of the abuse, and be able to say I regret it, which we all do, but we didn't have a choice, doing that personally I was able to let go completely, telling myself that I regret that all what I went through happened was a major turning point for me in my recovery with my past issues. Since I was able to do it I wasn't feeling guilt or shame anymore, I wasn't stuck in the past anymore, I wasn't letting T,A,J,P,S,J,G,C ,G take over my life anymore....

And I won in the end, I have no more contact with those people, and those people did stuff to me from the years of 1996-2001...

Now I know that I am safe and in a healthy relationship...

The nightmares ended, the triggers are less, the body memories are less, and I feel free from this.

I'm sure that I will always live with PTSD and triggers, perhaps even body memories, but I refuse to let myself be stuck there again.


<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>