Finally got diagnosed. Previously it was just 'psychosis' or 'depression with psychosis', which made little sense. Now I got confirmation from my newer p-doc that I have some flavor of sz. I feel...relieved? I know that sounds odd, but 'psychotic depression' seemed so nebulous that I had no idea how to handle it. I've suspected some form of sz for a long time, based on the criteria but to hear that I'm not just stupid...I don't know, it makes me feel less out of control. I just feel really lucky that my 'positive' symptoms respond (relatively) well to treatment.