Hello Fuzzy I would like to ahre something with you that I saw on a wall of an herbal shoppe Live to Learn Learn to Live. As you Learn about your triggers and your life you will grow and be able to do things in a more appropriate manner. Life happens one day at a time, and you need to try to do things in a more positive manner and try to deal with life more appropriately. Perhaps trying to get your therapist to help you with exercises that may help you would help you a great deal, none of us are perfect but you owe it to yourself to have the life you would like to have. I hope the best for you Fuzzy . Take care Soidhonia