Tonight I'm struggling big time with decision making. Trying to decide what would be the best to do. My girls both will go off to college soon. They both graduate from high school this May. My son still lives at home and is attending community college so that he can live with me. My girls can't wait to leave home. Here's my issue.....moving. Currently we 4 live in a 2 bedroom apartment. We have one bathroom. It is a small, crappy apartment because even though my landlord is super nice he doesn't do any up keep on the apartment building. There are issues with the fridge and the stove and the air conditioner/heating system. Anyone in their "right mind" would not put up with the crap I put up with and keep paying their $825 per month rent. Now the rent is pretty cheap which is good because I only make about $15,000 per year. I'm very poor and my "symptoms" don't allow me to get a better job. I've been on my current job 7 yrs and have managed to "walk the walk" and "talk the talk" well enough that no one suspects that I am "unwell". So here's the deal. I need and want very much to move. Problem is that even though I completely hate my tiny crappy apartment I do feel safe there. I've even thought about putting my own money into my apartment and totally fixing everything and putting in a new air conditioner system and everything. I of course don't own the apartment and would only be making the landlord richer by doing this because if for some reason he decided to kick me out and rent the place to someone else for a higher rent then I would be the loser in the situation. I would love to move somewhere away from the noise of Dallas. I'd like to live in the country or a very small town that doesn't have that many people. But I am so scared of making this change and my "symptoms" put all sorts of negative thoughts and worries in my head. How will I get past this in order to move somewhere nicer and somewhere that I can feel safe and comfortable? My son is 21. Should I continue to allow him to live with me or should I force him to grow up and get his own place? He doesn't drive because I've been too afraid to teach him. I feel like because I'm "unwell" I am making him not grow. My oldest daughter is 19 and doesn't drive either and my youngest is 17 and paid her own way through driver's education and knows how to drive but I don't allow her to. It scares and worries me too much that I just can't handle it. Sorry for the lengthy explanation but I just really need some advice. I feel like such a failure and can't seem to make any decisions on this stuff. It sucks to be me right now!