ive been doing ok lately up until last night or so. i got no sleep last night cause my dad was drinking and not ok and i had to kinda care for him. but then i started drinking. and things got out of hand in my mind.

i think overall i actually been ok lately. well kinda. i wont go into my paranoia. ive been hiding that more. i feel like i should.

nothings better. its just kinda level out. but i feel myself slipping