I am struggling with getting over an emotional affair my wife had. That "affair" involved dozens of men and women she chatted with trying to get them to have cyber sex with her and resulted in many of them actually masterbating to each others chat or Skype. Sometimes 3X a day. I read one of her lovers chats of thousands of lines that she didn't delete so I know this is true.

She just made a comment to me that "At least it was only one time". Only one freaking time? How about dozens of times over weeks and weeks? She meant it's the only time in her life she did something like that and she has said before at least she didn't sleep with anyone.

My god, at this point, it might of been better if she had a one night stand rather than what she did and the trail she left.

Sometimes it's so painful I want to scream. Other times I feel like I am over it, hug her and talk with her and feel we can move on. God I am messed up.