It's great that you're reading the literature. I just have to ask, have you worked steps 1 through 8 before working 9 and 10? It's been my experience that working the steps in order helps to make them make sense, and since 9 is amends, it's better to have an understanding of the first 8 before going and making amends. A good friend of mine relapsed recently and she's starting over with step one, because since she drank, she realized she hadn't a thorough first step. Just an idea. Keep on trudgin!