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Nov 11, 2013, 11:36 PM
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Wow, my first post in the new roll call & it's already four pages in!! Unsurprising... I haven't been around really. That's been happening lately & I kind of want to make it a point to correct that. I don't want newtus or anyone else leaving!
Started the Depakote on Halloween. And it was working pretty great; no negative side effects. But as of Thursday it started making me have fits of extreme nausea. I even missed the train to my therapy appointment [which I'm pretty obsessive about attending] & walked home because I couldn't deal with riding a bus. And then on Saturday I started puking! There was even blood the first time it happened!! So I've had to regretfully stop until I can consult her... But my appointment isn't until December 2nd & she's so busy, so it's a pain in the *** to get one earlier. And might not even happen. Aaaaaand we all know what happened last time I got angry with a social worker telling me I couldn't see her! 
So I'm medication-less for the first time in 3 months or so? Kind of daunting, especially since there's been a lot of outside sources of stress lately... No car AGAIN. My boyfriend's mother is becoming an issue again. He's tired & having serious identity/esteem issues, so I need to help carry some mental weight. Still trying to find a job. Etc.... And my PMDD is going to be in sway soon enough, which will just create it's own shitstorm.
In a lot of pain today from being out in the sun & walking around a lot. And my tooth is still acting up but I had to stop taking the Naproxen because that was probably contributing to the vomiting too! I tried some pain relief meditation... It took the edge off so I could gather the energy to finish cooking. But only for a short period of time. More painkillers tomorrow! 
I feel an episode coming on. I couldn't sleep at all last night... Tried laying down after taking an ativan. Tried meditating. Went to pace around a bit. Tried laying down again. Tried reading & browsing the net. And then I was finally able to go to sleep, albeit it took me awhile. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. This is just a prime example of bad timing! I'll get through it. I always do.
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