I am dealing with a big weight issue and actually have been for quite sometime now. What I mean by quite sometime now, I mean at least 23 years. I can't seem to get food out of my brain it's not good foods it's bad foods. I blame it on myself and the foods I enjoy eating.
I just came from the Dr and had a checkup, once again found out my Cholesterol was extremely high. You would think that I would care since my Mom and Dad both died from Heart attacks, tho my mom had other complications as well.

I have a Daughter that I worry about, she's 11 yrs old. She is over weight, she deals with Depression and ADHD as well. I remember being in Jr high and being called a Lard ***** by the kids. I know now that the kids are even more cruel and I don't want her to move into Jr high and get even worse treatment from them.

Food is our escape goat from the world. If you are an Over eater due to bordum, or you deal with Depression/Anxiety you may understand what I mean.

I hate being this way. I lack MOTIVATION and I am not one to exercise unless someone is holding my hand so to speak. Then I will have the motivation.

I am 90 lbs over weight per my Dr. I would love to lose at least 65 lbs, and that still wouldn't put me at my ideal weight. That's a weight I felt comfortable with, at the age of 20.

My daughter can afford to lose 45 lbs. Once again my motivation is so low I am not much of a teacher there either.

I don't know what to do. My Dr even looked into Gastric Bypass for me, but my insurance wouldn't cover it.

I am hurting more so now, because my sister is going in for Gastric surgery on the 23rd and she wants me to help her after it. I am ok with that because I want to be there for her, but I guess you can say that I am wrong in a way because I am Jealous or Envious of her as well. It's not in my nature to be or feel this way so I am hurting even more inside.

Can anyone offer suggestions? I am a loss right now. My self esteem was low to begin with and now I feel it has hit an all time low.