I've been having very vivid dreams for the past couple weeks. Some are very disturbing. Some are just weird. Some seem so real I'm confused when I wake up - I don't know if I should mention the events of it in case it isn't real, but what if it's real and someone could explain motivations behind it?

One dream was literally just me on the computer using a torrent to download the entire series of Oz, another was people hating me in high school and sending me threatening notes, and another was a trippy movie like dream where someone I slightly know online is actually a famous actor and collects nazi paraphernalia and a bunch of us were in his house and strange **** started happening.

Another was I took the dogs outside and there was a lawn party and no one like the food and there were panthers and all sorts of exotic animals in the field and then someone ended up lost in the field so a bunch of us went to find them, but the field wasn't our field it was the field from our old house.

I don't know what they mean. I had to check the next morning to see if I did actually download Oz, and I'm not sure about the notes in school. What if there were but I've blocked them out? I've dissociated several times before, what if I dissociated out large chunks of my life?

This is too much to think about. I can't sleep. I will eventually fall asleep and have another vivid dream and the thoughts of it will consume me and it will be hard for me to focus on my exam.