AmyFed07--I am so glad that you reached out to a crisis line. I understand your
desire to cancel your psych appts,but PLEASE DON'T CANCEL your appts. Call
your psych doc and your therapist's office & ask if there is any way you can e-mail your providers. Obviously you can't communicate solely this way,but if this
will make it easier for you to go in to see your providers face to face then it can be a positive tool. I use e-mail frequently with my therapist.
One thing you mentioned I can identify with completely is feeling like you are a burden to your friends,family,co-workers,& as you pointed out your psych doc &
therapist. I have felt the exact same way. Recently,I have felt that way about my
therapist. I have voiced that to him & he assured me that he did not regret taking me on a as a pt. I strongly encourage you to directly ask your psych doc & therapist if they consider you a burden or feel they have done all they can for
you. You can decide what to do based on their answers. Now is really when you
need to see your psych professionals & get help before something goes terribly
wrong. Hang in there. You Can Make It!!!