Hello sorry to hear that you are having a bad time at this time. Grief is the hardest thing to get over at times and you need time to get over your loss, and possibly therapy to help you to learn that anger is okay it is how you deal with the anger appropriately that matters. It is okay to have emotions and express the emotions that you are having, you do not have to be perfect all of the time, to exist.and I hope your therapist is working with you on feeling like you can express yourself without feeling inappropriate or that you will lose all of the time. I really hope the best for you I really do. Take care Soidhonia