How do you follow through on something you know you should probably do, but are too scared to ask for? where do you find the courage of you are terrified of the consequences?
I'm pretty much at the point of needing inpatient at the moment, but don't trust asking anyone to help me get there except my t who Is off until tomorrow. But I am also worried that I will lose my resolve by then and not be able to ask her (the consequences are scary and its easier to resolve to do it when the actuality of it is not looming)... I keep telling myself to give the day program another try tomorrow, then stop by t's office on the way home If need be. I'm just afraid I'll lose my nerve. I'm supposed to see t Thursday for our session. Maybe that answers my question... maybe if I chicken-out tomorrow, I can bring myself to do it Thursday... it maybe by Thursday my head well right itself.