My g/f had called me to invite my son and myself to his b'day party on 1/13.

I got a call from my sister on 12/30 that my g/f was coming in (she works in a funeral home) to make arrangements because her son had passed away.

I was shocked...it is shocking.

I feel so sad for her. I spent the day with her.

It's overwhelming really. The father's b'day was this same day. How awful..huh.

What I'm having a really hard time with is getting the images of an almost 3year old child in a casket.

It just doesn't seem natural what so ever.

I was raised in a funeral home and have always had issues surrounding death.

I talked to her on the 13th and it's the first time I can hear her breaking down.

She had gone to the cemetary to release balloons w/the song "tears in heaven" on index cards.

I just wanted to vent here.

It's been a difficult time as this has happened and also I just found out my mother is sick.