there's a crisis line, but it's a sexual assault crisis center so they would just refer me out to a different number... I've been utilizing the crisis chats through lifeline... that helps get me through the moment. I just need to keep getting through moments till at least tomorrow.

I'm trying to keep busy with re-homing my geckos. A rescue said they would take them. I didn't realize how badly my depression was effecting them... I will be able to meet up with the girl today. That's a huge relief. That way even if I go inpatient (when), I will not feel so bad with them not getting care...

Unfortunately, I've already written that story, and it has them coping better when I'm gone... I'm trying to stay away from anything that may end up sounding like a goodbye note.