I hate being in a mixed state so I feel for you. Maybe you could try journalling. It might help get the anger out. I'm sorry you don't have anyone that can help you through this. Are you sure one of your friends couldn't spare a little time for you today?
If not, PC can keep you busy.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha