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Right now I'm feeling all of the above!

Worse off now than I was when I wrote this original post. I wanna get rid of the baby; she's so needy. I'm tired of having to to help her. I want someone to hold me and tell me I'm good and that they love me! I hate going inside and taking care of the other parts.

Wanna get off the merry-go-round that is my life. It's so hard right now! Just wanna quit! But you can't quit your life! No SI feelings, just want out. Can't dissociate any more when I want to avoid something. Dissociate when I'm needed inside and then someone else comes out.

More later.</font>