Congratulations on making it eight months. That is something to be proud of. I think going to sleep right is a good idea and hope tomorrow willl be better. Please take that hurdle and find a therapist. I think that would help a lot. Stay strong I know you can fight your way out of this.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha