Hugs for you!! I totally agree with what the others have posted. You did NOT DESERVE that abuse!! I admire the fact that you are here with us and have made such a terrible situation. To tell one's life tramautic story takes a lot of courage. Whenever u need to chat send me a pm. You are in my prayers. Keep your Head UP!! You did nothing wrong! You deserve a fresh start, allow yourself to get a fresh start in life. Are you seeking any therapy services? That can help with your nightmares and the voices. Best of luck to you.