Lately, I just don't care about anything. I feel numb, like I'm floating through life, doing the emotions, but for no reason. I feel worthless, and empty.. and I don't know why.

I haven't been sleeping either. I will toss and turn and when I finally fall asleep I feel like I never slept and there's terrible pain all over my body.

Plus, I've gotten more distant from everyone.. not for any reason that I know of.. I just have... But when I am around people I get angry so easy.. and I just get so pissed that I freak out...


When I was in eighth grade I was hospitalized for self harm and they perscribe me a high dosage of prozac and another medicine for my depression and anxiety and I havent taken it in two years.. Im a sophomore now.

If i try to ask for a therapist or medicine my dad yells and yells and i start to cry and i relapse with the self harm.. and I dont like it.. i fel ugly and i dont want to be lost anymore I want to feel something. ANYTHING.. but i dont know what to do.

My dad says that its a RIGHT to be sad.. and that I dont have a reason to.. but i am...

what do i do?