Danica, you mention this is an online boyfriend. Have you ever met? The reason I ask is that I know what it is like to fall in love with who you think the person is and not with who they really are. Twenty years ago I met someone online. I thought we were perfect together even the first time we met (if a safe environment) was great, then reality came crashing down. He was not the man I thought he was, he had never lied to me but I put him on a pedestal that was unrealistic. I was crushed. It was actually at this time when I was first diagnosed with depression.

What I am trying to say is be careful.