I have a feeling many of us have been cheated with this illness. Now they can diagnose kids, but looking back at my 40 years of life, dx in 97 but no meds till 99, I know I wasted some precious time doing stupid things, not thinking, you name it. The only think I have really are my kids and some of them have this as well. Though I try to get past my regret of my at times bizairre behavior and doing the first thing that comes to ming and the fact that I did have way more than depression, the dx I carried around for years, I can't. I just pray for a good day to come my way when i won't feel so bad about things. it is a double edged sword, glad to be dxd? but not really happy that I have a dx at the same time. You have a right to be upset but honestly, what good will it do with the past, now get the appropriate meds and do your best to try to achieve a "normality' for yourself.

At least you found out! Good luck!