Hello Brunette,

Sorry to hear that life has been dumping on you. I do not have any magic words that will make your pain disappear...... sorry.

But here is my thoughts after reading your post... (ignore the order of my comments)

- I abhor drug use. I hate, hate, hate it. It is so incredibly stupid. If you need to get high.... get drunk. It is LEGAL and people are not murdered daily because of beer smuggling. I know pro-drug people will want to crucify me - but there is NEVER a good reason for drug abuse (IMO).

- Your "friend" who is sleeping around is a pile of dog poo.... I agree. If I were in your shoes - I would never talk to him again. And if anyone mentioned his name to myself - I would bluntly tell them that you do not associate with him due to his immoral actions. (no further discussion should ever occur).

- Your grandpa... Ouch and hugs to you. I know it hurts. It hurts very bad. I suppose it is supposed to hurt. If it didn't hurt - then (I guess) that person did not mean much to you....
78 is not a bad age to go. I know you didn't like it. But he did live a long life. Personally I do not want to be around at that age. I am heaven bound and I am very open to going anytime He will take me.

I hope that was not too preachy. And I really do feel for you - your pain is real and deep. They say time heals all wounds. Personally, I think that is crap - but time does soften it some.......