I have had problems keeping friends over the years. I have no close friends anymore. I romantic relationship is strained but because of the new diagnosis of BPD not bi-polar...we are hopeful that we can work through this. My b/f is a saint some days and not others, but this is part of the disorder I have to come to terms with. It is a long road to recognize and change bad behavior taught by bad people in my childhood. I hope to learn to be a whole person and not a fractured one. One day, hour or minute at a time. We are working on "code words" to help me recognize when I am not doing well that will not make me angry at b/f for trying to help me...hope this makes sense