Go and run as fast as you can, i say as a survivor of abuse. I know it's hard to do what people tell you, but you should not be treated bad by anyone especially your "loved one". You can pm me anytime, I'm scared for you!!! I hope you don't take this post the wrong way, i'm just validating your feelings, you're right and don't need this anymore!!! You do have every right to leave if you would feel guilty-don't. I got out of 2 different relationships years ago, where i was being abused and can't believe i'm still alive after all the abuse that was done to me. Please don't follow your bad judgements about the type of guys you would be with from now on, it seems to form a pattern with some women, including me, and learn from this mistake, i'm saying just be careful, you deserve so much better.