I'm feeling really discouraged today. I saw my primary doc. I tried telling her how I'm doing better with my mental health and I've avoided being in the hospital for over a month! Her response: "If you don't change your diet, you're going to wind up in the hospital anyways from a stroke or heart attack". Gee...thanks!

Just 3 months ago, I was isolated from everyone for 6 years. Through a series of events, I finally got out of the house. I have changed everything from my sleeping schedule, my diet, my exercise, medication, seeing doctors, doing "homework" for therapist, stopped cutting, lost 25 lbs., etc. Even my blood sugar test came back today saying that it's in the normal level and is not affecting my organs anymore! But, no, that's not good enough.

Sometimes I really wonder what is the point of all this effort to try to improve myself. Is there a light at the end of the tunnel, or am I just fooling myself?