Thanks guys. And I hope...hope that wasn't TMI :/

But yeah, I think for me, this memory has been coming up a lot more recently since I've started facing my issues with my lack of trust for my own parents. For me, despite the explanation before it happened, I still felt completely betrayed by them. The ceremony and those other adults were more important than me (and I was terrified...still get enraged by it sometimes). That's how my 4 year old mind processed it. I felt like it created this huge rift between them and me. I distrusted adults and authority figures, really. I felt that I could never really look to my parents for safety as a child. I mean, there were moments that felt "safe", and they seemed so fleeting that I got anxious even getting attached to those moments if that makes sense? Perhaps if they had otherwise been emotionally available and stable, it would have been different? idk. I haven't posted here in this section before, so talking about it this openly is still a new thing.

So my question for anyone here. Back to stuff about parents..if you feel comfortable saying so, do you feel that your traumatic event(s) has/have affected your relationship with your parents (or other family members)?If so, how?

Thanks again