Hi Adrian,
Thanks a lot for sharing your story! You are very young and mature. Little by little you will get better, I bet. Event though my experience is not that similar to yours, also I had to break away my family somehow in order to grow up and have a chance to have an adult life. I just wanted to tell you that in addition to your family background and their influence that you have introjected, there is an influence that comes from society as a whole, as well. I mean nowadays there are things that trigger our anxiety more than ever in history (given the type of society we live in). On the other hand, for sure you know that the food industry has become the enemy of good health not only because of publicity but also for the composition of food, the subsidies given to crops that are not that healthy while vegetables, etc, remain very expensive. Moreover, the hectic life we have, sedentarism,other problems in the modern life style are not helpful at all. It is hard to lose weight, despite we are depressed or not, despite our personalities, etc. So, if things get hard with regard to losing weight,please, do not be too hard on yourself. Be mindful of all the conditionality. Not to justify yourself, but to give fair importance to every factor intervening, not to dismay. I know you did not ask for advice I am not giving it, but just sharing my struggle with you. I wish you the best