Sorry Angie~

I am tired of being this way and I am having other health problems anyways ... so I am fairly sure that I am going to go thru with this. I'm about 80% there. I have my application filled out now. And I am still thinking hard about sending it out now.

I am both nervous and excited. It will be hard I know.. but if it keeps me from getting this cellulitis again, lowering my bp, helps my heart beat more normally, and lets me live more fully.. I am all for it! And if it causes more problems .. well I will deal just like I have with everything else in my life. The best I know how. I need to do this for me. Not anyone else , not even my husband. BUT FOR ME!!!!!!!!! This is a chance I need to take to make a better life for myself. Who knows I may be able to work again some day ?!?!!?! I would be soooo happy to be able to do that!