I feel "dead" and I'm a recoving self harmer. I haven't cut since 45 days ago. I feel bad when I do it and don't do it too. I feel worse when I do it though. I got tried of it after this summer, when I finaly facebooked a friend and my family found out that way. If I want to hurt myself, I just stop shaving my legs for a few weeks until my thoughts are not a problem at the moment anymore.