I am new here. I have been battling depression and anxiety since I was a teenager. I've been on zoloft for a couple of years. When I take my medicine regularly, I feel pretty good.
A couple of weeks ago I went to the doctor to get a Rx refill for all my meds (i have diabetes and high blood pressure too). I met with a new doctor who went on to tell me that I have no reason to be depressed and that I should look in the mirror and thank God everyday for my blessings. I went to the dr. feeling good and left out feeling bad. I began to wonder if my depression was all in my head (funny cause it sort of is...)
I stupidly stopped taking everything. Today was the final straw. I called in to work sick and stayed in bed all day. When I got up, I was still very tired and still wanted to stay in bed. I can't describe the crazy thoughts that have been going through my head. Finally, I come across this site. I feel motivated to get back on track with my meds.
I feel stuck because low income and no insurance prevents me from seeking the kind of help I know I need. I'm so uncomfortable around new people (esp. drs). But I need to get better because I feel like I'm cheating my family when I am like this.
I feel like I'm in this deep dark hole. If I'm not careful and don't fight this, I might get too comfortable there. Sometimes it seems easier to just ... but there is that part of me that wants to fight this.
Anyway, thanks to whoever set this forum up because I don't feel so alone.