Oh BreeMarie,

Sweetie, it breaks my heart to read your post. I am so sorry that you have no support system.
I think that our family runs away from us is because they don't know how to help us and instead of just being there and loving us, they run the other way.
You are so right. Depression is different for everyone. I have fought severe depression for many years.
I wish that your family could understand what it is like to want to run and hide from the world. To shut everyone out as you don't want to talk to anyone. It's like falling in this dark hole and you keep going deeper and deeper and there is no bottom.
I do hope that your new T. will help you. Not like your old T. did. I'm also glad to hear that your bf is supporting you. You need all the support you can get. Try and surround yourself with people that are supportive of you.
Even if it's coming on here and talking about it. It really does help, knowing that other people are going through the same thing.
I wish you all the best. Take care and let us know how it goes with your new T.
Hugs,
Boopers.