So, I run into this problem with T's all the time, and this one is particularly bad at it and I don't know what to do.

I have never dealt with an abusive relationship I've had in the past. Actually, a few of them, and whenever it comes up in T I am distracted away from the feelings in exchange for more "pleasant" conversation such as upcoming exams.

I'm to scared to tell her I want to talk about it, but I do, even if it means I end up a mess walking out of that office. Especially since it's been surfacing again.

But that's not all. She's also told me that she, like me, can take too much on and has to be careful about hearing too much from someone because it hurts her, because she, like me, is overly empathetic. WTF!? YOUR A GOD DAMN THERAPIST!!!

All I want is someone to get me through the **** that I'm dealing with in life now, and when that's done (it's done btw), help me deal with my past. But instead I get obviously distracted and talk about my exams, then go home and stare down my old blades and a pile of pills and keep telling myself no, I can get through this without them while listening to songs about rape and hurting yourself.

I am so lost with this right now..... though she's just left for a three week vacation, so I can't even say anything.

And my case manager is sick and I haven't been able to get ahold of her...