Sooo...I don't know exactly what to call this. Basically, I can ONLY be attracted (physically/sexually, I find it difficult to love) to sociopathic, sadistic individuals. Obviously, you can see why this would cause problems for me. As an example of the sort of people I'd be attracted to are: Hannibal Lecter, Dexter Morgan, The Governor. I know it seems kinda stupid listing off fictional characters but that might be some help.

Also, I can't even find people like this. I have once or twice and it was great as far as like sexual stuff went, but emotionally, it was really really bad. I have this image of what my relationships would be like but it's so far off that I can't even maintain any real relationships at all, and it sucks. Can anyone tell me what this thing is called, or others that have the same thing? I'd really love to relate to someone. I feel so alone on this.