I only just saw this thread (((Lia))). I know you been going through a lot Sis
I feel same way but I was gone on my hypo for months just checking in here & there - random poems or let you know what cray thing i did the night before, but came back to rules & new people, my poetry gets moved to corner, I inappropriately got aggro & had a talking to from mods, embarrassing, oh well. I remember you said feelin like the new girl. And me too. The dynamic changed. We just have to get our bearings again and all get to know each other. It will never be the same but let's try to get comfortable again. You know I been going thru the ringer too, I'm reluctant to post personal thread here lately. Worried someone will say, this is a bpd issue not bp & some argument will start. I'm already fragile, don't give me arguments yanno? Anyway we made some magic happen here, time stopped and we were safe totally unaware we were actually on stage for entire internet.. maybe we'll learn lessons how to bend & adapt to ever changing groups who will be here. I hope we can make it back into a family, I miss that. You guys have been all I've got so many times.
I'm sorry I didn't see this thread sooner!! Love you sis, you're a smart inspiring lady