I can relate to your relationship with your husband. I often wonder why my husband stays with me because of the bipolar. I get so depressed that I'll go a week without showering, keep the house in such disarray that I don't get the door, have gained a lot of weight from meds, and therefore abhor the idea of sex. When I was manic my husband refinanced our house and I blew through about $10k on God knows what. I also don't function and feel we have no life. He works very hard and I am on disability because I can't even function on simple tasks.