We had a more in-depth and open conversation this morning. She was able to tell me her feelings and what is bothering her in a better way than when she blew up on me yesterday. I think we both want the same thing, which is to feel comfortable in our little office and to be cordial and have each other's back. I don't think that is too much to ask since I want that too. Obviously, we still concur that I am still at fault and that I ought to be not so careless. I know realize my change has to be deeper, so I have made a promise to myself to faze my self out of things I don't need to get caught up in, because that is usually what gets me in this situation. And if I HAVE to get caught up in it, then I must keep my mouth shut before blurting out any type of answer, which in turn means highlighting her strengths. I know that sounds weird and like I am giving her too much credit, but its my best way to deal with this issue while slowly self-teaching myself how to measure my words better.
Alot of stuff made sense though which, not exactly towards her, have left me feeling a little angry and afraid for the seeds I seemed to unknowingly been planting. I know deep within my heart my intention was never to hurt anyone or cause anyone their job. I just wish my subconscious would've been more careful about what it was telling my instincts and rationale to do.