something triggered me badly the other day and kicked off a multiple chain of reactions
I wanted to tell my T about some of the reactions but couldn't because the internal rules and fears were too strong to break through
I tried to talk about some of the rules stopping me instead but the weight of the reactions was to strong and I was getting more and more overwhelmed
T said something that usually would have been fine but instead I had a major over reaction to and ended up having a major melt down
which seems to be continuing now
maybe it was going to happen anyway and didn't really need much of a new trigger
I just feel so alone with everything right now and frustrated with my reactions and the rules which are stopping me sharing things I need help with